So a month has passed since I have embarked on this journey back to the “far north”. Through a few meltdowns and frustrations, I have learned that this is just what I needed. I have always been the person that has had 3 things going on at one time, from jobs to school to extra curricular activities. I really don’t know how to relax! I originally wanted the first few weeks to be relaxing, but I couldn’t help but feel unproductive sitting and not doing what in my mind was “productive”. This feeling finally has passed, and each day it has gotten a little easier to TRUST and know that this is not about getting 5 things done a day. These days of leisure will soon be gone and I need to take as much from them now that I can. Although I can’t wait to get back to work, I know that this is happening just the way it’s supposed to. It has been a lesson of patience, trust, and putting myself out there to see what happens.
Since I have returned, I have realized so much that I took for granted. Alaska has so many healing properties that by just being in this state and appreciating it, changes my perspectives. I mean this view that I wake up to every morning is remarkable. How lucky am I? I remember sitting in the same spot not waiting to leave this state and I never realized what was in front of me. Alaska has something many places can’t say… quiet. Just being able to BE in the quiet nature lets you appreciate it all.
With my extra time, I have been practicing my yoga a few times a week. One thing said in yoga the other day resonated with me. “We look at the New Year, new birthday, and even a new day as new beginnings, but really it’s every new breathe we take that we can start a new.” The symbolism of a breath can mean so much. Letting all the old out and take in the new… Just remember, YOU can change any moment and ONLY YOU can change your situation. Each day is different and I experience obstacles daily, but every day I am getting a little better …
Excited to see what happens in this next month! Love and miss all my Reno family!